Log in

call it fake [entries|friends|calendar]

[ website | click for a good time. ]
[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

[16 Feb 2006|08:12pm]
i just updated my new journal,
some of yall ho's still haven't added me.
1 threw glitter| bring out your feminine side

[06 Feb 2006|03:04am]
i changed my livejournal username.
i am now:

i added everyone who is currently on my friends list by the way.
bring out your feminine side

[04 Jan 2006|11:17pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

jacked from  until_we_die
</span> [ Describe Your ]
x. [Wallet] huge leopard print one...from walmart
x. [Hairbrush] marroon.  big.
x. [Toothbrush]  white and purple, from the dentist's
x. [Jewelry Worn Daily] silver ring that i found in the bathroom during high school, the same sterling silver hoops i got my ears pierced with when i was twelve.  if i'm going out, i always wear my silver heart shaped watch with the diamonds
x. [Blanket] dorm-pink sheets, black soft blanket, leopard comforter.  home-purple sheets, old tattered (but still comfy) tan blanket, purple plaid or regular purple (it's reversible) comforter.  with an assortment of stuffed hello kittys and throw pillows.
x. [Coffee Cup] i don't drink coffee.
x. [Sunglasses] huge brownish vintage looking ones...very mary kate olsen or nicole ritchie-ish.
x. [Underwear] ::checks:: (i really did) pink hanes
x. [Shoes] right now i'm wearing furry black slippers with leopard print furry lining
x. [Favorite Shirt] either my andy warhol marilyn monroe screenprint one or this v neck black one i just bought with sequins going down the front.
x. [CD In Stereo Right Now] in my car stereo-the distillers "coral fang"
x. [Tattoos] none, unless you count the dot on the bottom of my foot from where i had that incident with the ink tag at work
x. [Piercings] ears
x. [What You Are Wearing Now] a black huge huge t shirt that i made in high school with a screenprint of a kid with a mohawk and "teenage angst" written underneath...a faded light blue hoodie from express that i've had since eighth grade that got rust spots all over it from the broken washer so i tried to bleach it out and now there's bleach spots all over it but i can't throw it out b/c it's the most comfy thing ever....light purple pj pants that are WAYYY too big from me and they have gouache paint stains on the bottom that looks like blood.  yep and i'm a fashion design major!!
x. [Hair] Black and huge like a porn star's
[ When was the last time you ... ]
x. [Smiled] Today
x. [Laughed] Today
x. [Cried] the other night when i was watching sisterhood of the traveling pants
x. [Bought] probably gas, i don't remember
x. [Danced] i don't remember.  i miss school dances by the way..wah.
x. [Were Sarcastic] on the phone with reed
x. [Had A Nightmare] The other night--i dreamt my now dead cat came back to us for the third time (?) but a python was trying to kill her in her cage
x. [Last Book You Read] currently i'm reading The vampire lestat.  what can i say?  anne rice is my guilty pleasure lol.
x. [Last Movie You Saw] sin city...hopefully i'll go see walk the line tomorrow
x. [Last Thing You Had To Drink] sam's choice cola
x. [Last Thing You Had To Eat] strawberry shortcake
[ Body ]
x. [What Do You Like Most About Your Body] i have a nice ass and nice boobs.  and i also think i have a nice figure for a bigger girl...i mean i know i'm fat but i think i don't look disgusting considering that fact.
x. [Smile] my smile looks mischievious
x. [How Many Fillings Do You Have] three miniscule ones...they're white and i forgot where they were
x. [Do You Think You Are Good-Looking] i'm aight
x. [Do Other People Often Tell You That You re Good-Looking] not like every day or anything...but i guess often.
x. [Do You Look Like Any Celebrities] i've been told a few, i don't see it though.  except if i were blond, i would see the alicia silverstone thing kinda.
x. [Fashion] heart it!!!!  i don't know what you would call my style though.  so i'll just stick with "glam"
x. [Do You Wear A Watch] yes and it's awesome...my fav accessory
x. [How Many Coats And Jackets Do You Own] five i believe
x. [Favorite Pants Color] black.  don't wear anything else.  and i hate jeans.
x. [Most Expensive Item Of Clothing] my furry coat..it cost like 80 dollars.  i'm very cheap, i don't buy anything over 25 dollars unless it's shoes, coats or MAYBE purses (the last purse i bought cost 58 dollars but it was the hottest thing ever and a gift from my grandma...i was just picking it out)
x. [Describe Your Style In One Word] once again, i guess i'll just say "glam"
[ Music;Television;Books ]
x. [Favorite Band Ever] i'm not sure, but my top five are (no order):  hole, nirvana, marilyn manson, nine inch nails, smashing pumpkins.  i go through stages with all of them.
x. [Type of Music Most Listened To] things you would snort cocaine to.
x. [Type Never Listened To] taking back sunday and that type of stuff.  it makes me want to rip out their testicles and give them to someone who would act like they had them.
x.[Favorite Book?] jane eyre.  a classic.  i also enjoy all types of bibles, anne rice, and cosmo (yes it's a book).
[ General Questions ]
x. [Sunny or Rainy Day] i like both.  and i never go outside for enjoyment so it doesn't matter.
x. [Do You Consider Yourself Lucky] i don't believe in luck
x. [Do You Feel Pity For People Who Commit Suicide] i could maybe.  can't think of a specific time though.
x. [Choose One Word To Describe How You Most Often Feel] clever
x. [Do You Own Plaid Clothing] yes but i don't  really wear them anymore
x. [Is There More Than One Zipper On Your Pants] there has been before.
x. [Do You wear Braces] i used to.
x. [Does Your Hairstyle Exceed A Height Of Three Inches] i'm 5'6.  with my hair poofed to a normal everyday height, i'm 5'11.  trust me i've measured.
x. [Would You Classify Your Hair As A Deadly Weapon] you know, i would.
x. [Do You Have A Favorite Brand Of Hair Dye] the kind i use...clairol i think.  it works really well.
x. [Are You Amused By Safety Pins] nah
x. [Have You Ever Used Duct Tape As A Sewing Substitute] no.  i've made a duct tape bracelet before though.
x. [Do You Like Candles] yeah they're pretty cool.
x. [Do You Believe In Love] yes i do
x. [Do You Believe In Soul Mates] i don't believe we're destined to "find our soulmate" or anything of that eharmony.com mess...but i do think soulmates are possible and can be developed over time.
x. [Do You Believe In Love At First Sight] no
x. [What Do You Want Done With Your Body When You Die] i'm not sure.  but i want my funeral to be a blast.
x. [Do You Own A Bandana] a pink one from dollar tree
x. [What Are You Gonna Do When You Get Older] design clothing for rock stars, young hollywood, and socialites.  and i want to work in nyc for a while until i get really rich, then settle down in california with my husband, lots of kids, and pets.
x. [What Band Are You Listening To] the smashing pumpkins
x. [What Do You See] the screen, and a weird coaster on the desk
x. [If You Could Have Any Animal For A Pet] a cream colored chow chow, a pomeranian, and an assortment of cats and hamsters and fish.
x. [What Is The Longest You Ever Stayed Up] two days and some hours
[ Habits;Beliefs ]
x. [Do You Smoke Cigarettes?] hell.  no.
x. [Are You A Vegetarian?] i was for a long time, but not anymore
x. [Do You Think Meat Is Murder] no
x. [Have You Ever Slept In An Alley Or Park] no
x. [Do You Wash Your Hair Less Than Once A Week] i wash it everyday.  but i can go a week without washing it b/c it's very dry.
x. [Have You Ever Gone A Week Without A Shower?] yes haha.  i was sick.
[ About Me]
x. [Birthday] 18 feb
x. [Sign] aquarius
x. [Location] prince george and richmond virginia
x. [Natural Hair Colour] dark blonde i guess...i don't know what to call it.
x. [Current Hair Colour] Black
x. [Eye Colour] green
[ Favorites ]
x. [Number] i don't have one
x. [Color] pink, purple, glitter
x. [Day] for some reason i've always really liked thursdays...i think it's the anticipation to the weekend that appeals to me.
x. [Month] december---i love the holiday season, except at work at the mall.  then i hate it.
x. [Song] i have many, but i'll list a few:  "the reflecting god" marilyn manson (yeah i'm goth like that), "reasons to be beautiful" hole, "one headlight" by the wallflowers.  all of those songs describe either me or things important to me and my life.  and as for current songs:  "hung up" madonna and "y control" the yeah yeah yeahs...i listen to them each time i'm in the car on the way to work.  either that or sp's "mellon collie and the infinite sadness"
x. [Movies] gone with the wind and willy wonka and the chocolate factory.
x. [Food] i don't know actually
x. [Season] summer
x. [Class] fashion drawing
x. [Teacher] don't have one, but i liked them all last semester
x. [Drink] cherry coke, various fruit juices
x. [Veggie] broccoli
x. [Television Show] right now it's a toss up between the gilmore girls and project runway.  i love tv, especially things that make me more dumb.  i think too much intellectually during the day, and i just like to find a stupid way to relax at night.
x. [Radio] i don't listen to the radio (maybe 20 minutes each year), but if i happen to by some chance (like forgetting my cd's in the car) i listen to that one station that advertises being able to play EVERYTHING (it's new) or the classic rock station or 103.7 mix or whatever. oh yeah and the rap stations too.
x. [Store] i'm not sure but i guess i'll choose the one i work in...Rave (or Lola in a few months)
x. [Word] don't have one.
x. [Animal] dogs and kitties
x. [Flower] roses, white or red
[Your Views Of Things..]
x. [Same Sex relationships and marriages] doesn't bother me.  i don't see why it's such a big deal to people who are so vehemently opposed, honestly.
x. [Drinking] i'm not much on drinking and the last time i did was a year ago. but i see a lot of people my age who drink too much for the wrong reasons.  i don't think it's wrong or anything, but i just think you should do it responsibly and not use it as an excuse to act stupid, cheat on your whoever, etc.
x. [Pornography] it's funny to watch...tot' unrealistic.  and the story lines suck.
x. [Pre-marital sex] i don't see why not.  unless you're like 12 or something.

bring out your feminine side

an observation: [25 Dec 2005|12:52am]
you pretend you're anything just to be adored.
2 threw glitter| bring out your feminine side

[21 Dec 2005|12:43am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Your Brain's Pattern
You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy. You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts. People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused. But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

Your Linguistic Profile:

65% General American English
20% Dixie
10% Yankee
5% Upper Midwestern
0% Midwestern
Your Power Color Is Indigo
At Your Highest: You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you. At Your Lowest: You require a lot of attention and praise. In Love: You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are. How You're Attractive: You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic. Your Eternal Question: "Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"
You Were a Cougar
You are a great leader who has dominance without ego. You are wickedly cunning and off the scale confident.
Your Birthdate: February 18
You are a cohesive force - able to bring many people together for a common cause. You tend to excel in work situations, but you also facilitate a lot of social gatherings too. Beyond being a good leader, you are good at inspiring others. You also keep your powerful emotions in check - you know when to emote and when to repress. Your strength: Emotional maturity beyond your years Your weakness: Wearing yourself down with too many responsibilities Your power color: Crimson red Your power symbol: Snowflake Your power month: September
You Have a Choleric Temperament
You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.
What Your Sleeping Position Says
You are confident and ready to tackle life. You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance. You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines. You're always up for trying something new - in and out of bed!
bring out your feminine side

[15 Dec 2005|12:16am]
[ mood | good ]

i've been having a surprising amount of fun lately, mainly b/c school is over and i'm not so stressed out all the time. after everything was done with last week, i could seriously feel myself feeling less and less wired...so that when mishaps happen, i can just tell myself "it's okay it's okay" and not freak out or get really mad (i had been doing that with every little thing literally). it sucks that i have to reassure myself now when stupid little things happen, like spills or dropping things, but i've never been so stressed in my life as i was this semester. i'm proud to say that i made it through fashion boot camp though lol. i'm doing little things i've missed lately, like sleeping in, or actually sleeping...or waking up without having to worry about an alarm. my chronic head and stomach aches are going away finally, and my back feels better, but i do think a lot of it caught up to me b/c i'm starting to get those little lumps on my legs again which means one thing: i'm about to get really sick...i keep having random coughing fits...but other then that i feel fine...maybe i won't get anything after all, that would be awesome. i hate being sick all the fucking time...i seriously get like every thing that goes around...blehh.
but yeah, after this friday--i will be OFF FOR A MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


5 threw glitter| bring out your feminine side

crash [08 Dec 2005|11:08pm]
[ mood | devastated ]

how did this even happen to me?
i don't even know what else to say or do.

3 threw glitter| bring out your feminine side

[08 Dec 2005|12:50pm]
You are a Self-Discoverer

You're not religious, but you've created your own kind of spirituality.
Introspective and thoughtful, you tend to look inward for the divine.
You are distrusting of all forms of organized religion.
You especially dislike religious gurus and leaders, who you feel are charlatans.
bring out your feminine side

predictability is a bitch. [02 Dec 2005|03:17am]
i love how i can control others' actions by just a click on a keyboard.

today kim and i were eating lunch together and sharing funny stories...i happened to mention one involving "my friend..well, ex-friend rachel" and of course that led to another story as to why we weren't friends anymore. i shared some of the amusing insults that were passed back and forth because being a bitch is our hobby during fashion classes and bio. naturally, kim was amused, and i thought it would be a tad fun to see what would happen if she made a little comment on my page about a certain someone. so i copyed and pasted her url onto kim's page, and kim wrote a cunty little remark on my page about it.
later on, i hear from reed that melissa was inquiring about the situation because she was going to leave a hello kitty picture on my page and just happened to read what kim wrote. (by the way melissa, i've yet to see that cute hk pic).
now, what kim wrote wasn't particularly directed towards rachel...it could honestly apply to about half of vcu/richmond (reference my page for the exact quote). the only reason someone knew it was about rachel was that they looked on kim's page and found what i had written.
i hate when people "stalk" my page, don't you?
most importantly, i told kim earlier "she's going to find it in a few hours, and her friends and/or family are going to IM me about it, and then they're going to send you hate mail."
sure enough, this happened:

EJaxxx5: Hey. I guess I was just IMing you kind of figure out what's going on with strangers talking badly about Rachel on your My space.

EJaxxx5: This is Elizabeth by the way.

aStrangrWthCandy: ok?

EJaxxx5: Why is it that you have nothing better to do then get a girl involved with your childish problems... that girl doesn't even know who Rachel is.

EJaxxx5: That's kind of immature

aStrangrWthCandy: well you don't even know who that girl is or barely know me

aStrangrWthCandy: that's kind of immature

EJaxxx5: No because it involves my best friend..

EJaxxx5: I'm not fighting just asking.

EJaxxx5: That's all.

aStrangrWthCandy: well if rachel wants to know she can ask me herself. it's none of your business. thanks<3

EJaxxx5: That's pretty fucked up, KY.

aStrangrWthCandy: how is that fucked up?

aStrangrWthCandy: she gets mad when someone else gets in her business but it's okay for her "best friend" to do the same thing?

aStrangrWthCandy: i'm loving it.

EJaxxx5: Just basically talking shit about her then getting a girl to say shit about as well. Noo.. she isn't mad because you got in her business

EJaxxx5: she is mad because that girl randomly talked shit about her and so did you

EJaxxx5: She didn't copying anyone

EJaxxx5: Why is that even an issue

aStrangrWthCandy: if it doesn't bother her, then why are you IMing me? why did melissa IM my boyfriend?

aStrangrWthCandy: freedom of speech. we can say what we want and so can she.

EJaxxx5: She dropped it and you bring it back up.

aStrangrWthCandy: so what if i did bring it back up?

aStrangrWthCandy: if she was over it, she wouldn't care.

EJaxxx5: Obviously she cares when fucking trash starts saying she is a mental mouth. Good stuff.

aStrangrWthCandy: i'm sorry, there was nothing said about a "mental" mouth

EJaxxx5: metal*

aStrangrWthCandy: she doesn't care what people say/think about her right?

aStrangrWthCandy: why would she go on my page anyway if she was over it?

aStrangrWthCandy: how did she know the comment was about her unless she went on my friends page?


EJaxxx5: Not Rachel

EJaxxx5: So, obviously the message was delayed

aStrangrWthCandy: aStrangrWthCandy: how did she know the comment was about her unless she went on my friends page?

EJaxxx5: Didn't I just answer that?

aStrangrWthCandy: well apparently it upset someone enough to go on kim's page

aStrangrWthCandy: stalk much?

EJaxxx5: Oh yeah I like dealing with Trash whores

EJaxxx5: There wonderful liars

aStrangrWthCandy: no wonder why you hang out with rachel then

aStrangrWthCandy: you can copy and paste that to her too :-)

EJaxxx5: Haha!!

EJaxxx5: That's funny.


MelishiousMel: hey ky....

aStrangrWthCandy: hey

MelishiousMel: yeah elizabeth told me you asked y i imed reed....lol

MelishiousMel: i just asked a question

aStrangrWthCandy: i wasn't asking why for an answer, it was a rhetorical question

MelishiousMel: oh lol

aStrangrWthCandy: and seriously if rachel has a problem with me she needs to talk to me not get you or elizabeth to do it.

MelishiousMel: well the reason she just knows about it, she doesn't have a problem cause i was going to put a picture comment of hello kitty on your comments and i saw that one and i said something and it got around and it pissed a few people off

aStrangrWthCandy: well the only way you would have known it was about rachel is if you went on my friends page right?

aStrangrWthCandy: if no one wants to get "pissed off" then they don't need to look at stuff when they're "over it"

MelishiousMel: well i saw metalmouth and that is what some people call her cause of her piercings so i kinda knew...

aStrangrWthCandy: well what if i told you it wasn't about her?

MelishiousMel: i'm not trying to piss you off ky

aStrangrWthCandy: oh i'm not pissed off.

aStrangrWthCandy: i'm amused b/c i knew all of this would arise from one little comment. or two.

MelishiousMel: yeah

aStrangrWthCandy: seriously though. if rachel has a problem with me, it's with me and she needs to talk about it with me. obviously she doesn't think she can handle it. and i never DID see that hello kitty picture you left on my page. i guess you forgot about it.

MelishiousMel: yeah i'll show it to ya i have it saved on my computer

aStrangrWthCandy: oh. ok.

MelishiousMel wants to directly connect.

MelishiousMel: connect

aStrangrWthCandy cancels request; no connection was made. (Note: For best results, you and your buddy should use the latest version of AIM.).

aStrangrWthCandy: i can't direcly connect b/c of my norton anti virus

MelishiousMel: oh

MelishiousMel: whats you e-mail

aStrangrWthCandy: just put it on my myspace page

MelishiousMel: i'll have to get the code together

aStrangrWthCandy: ohh okay

MelishiousMel: Onextremegurl: she needs to mind her business and tell her i said that her mom will be gettin a phone call and all her shit is gonna be out in the open

aStrangrWthCandy: like i said. if rachel has a problem with me. tell her. to. IM. me.

aStrangrWthCandy: and i don't how i'm not minding my own business by the way. two people (none of whom are rachel) IMed me tonight on her behalf.

aStrangrWthCandy: i didn't do anything to her. someone put a comment on my page which may or may not be about her, you read it, told her, and then everyone IMs me.

aStrangrWthCandy: no one forced kim to write that. if rachel wants to talk to kim, then she can go ahead.

aStrangrWthCandy: i mean she already knows her myspace page.

then, as i also predicted, kim gets some lovely fanmail:

From Melissa:

Hey I was on my friend ky's page going to leave her a picture comment and I came across yours saying shit about my best friend...... Whats up witht hat, you don't even know her?

From Elizabeth:

I happened to run across your comment you posted on KY's my space account and I realized something .. you were talking about a good friend of mine Rachel or you probably only know her as "onextremegurl" ...Badly I might had.. That's funny because I never knew that you two had met before. Wow. That's amazing. Well, my names Elizabeth and I'd like to talk to you about your mouth running especially about someone you don't even know.. Your so called friends don't fucking tell you the whole story. If they want to call someone trash just look into the mirror they'll find what they are looking for. I think that it would be best for you to stay out of their problems and leave a person who isn't bad alone. :) Thanks!!

From Rachel:

"eww what a poser... she sooo took your look but you make it look a million times infinity better... haha... plus shes got a metalmouth and they looks like shit "

can you please explain to me how I "took" ky's look?? PLEASE i would love to know...seeing as how i look/dress NOTHING like her... nor will i ever!!..and the taking the look is the OTHER way around!..I dyed my hair black years ago then ky goes and does it ive been wearing pink eyeshadow for 3 years and guess who just started to wear it now??..again ky...you need to get your facts straight honey before you start talkin bout people you dont even know....how can you call me a poser when you dont even know me just on the way i look??...you know NOTHING..the only people who are so called "posers" are the people who are calling people that!..if I was a poser i would be wearing bondage pants like these little goth kids are and listening to good charlotte, and greenday!! guess what i dont do any of that!!... and sorry honey but my piercings dont look like shit.....maybe it was just your face....thats bullshit to be talkin bout someone who you dont even know!...hope you know that you got a lot of people pissed for talkin shit about me!!! and you just started a lot of shit!

melissa, rachel,and elizabeth: thanks for playing.

now, i'm sure a lot of your are wondering why i would incite such a cunty, cunty thing. let me inform you of some previous incidents that occured this week:
-melissa randomly IMs miranda with "dustin wants to beat your ass for being two faced." miranda responds with something along the lines of "i don't care, he's high school, etc." not a minute later, miranda gets a call from, guess who? dustin. wondering why miranda had said such a horrid thing about him. the real question is: how did he find out?
-miranda and i talk and realize, hey, something is up. why would melissa spread things like that unless she wanted to start something? so naturally, it all falls back to that certain someone.
-i "stalk" her page. i admit it. i looked. at. rachel's. page. once in four months. god, i'm such a fucking loser who has nothing better to do with my time then check people's myspaces whom i hate. every hour of every day. sometimes every minute when i'm really motivated.
-i find "hi my name is rachel and i love when people who hate me copy me, it's really flattering." obviously a reference to us. because, you know, we all want to sit around on myspace all day without a job or a life. i'm dropping out of college as i speak right now. we all want black hair and pink eyeshadow. yep, i admit it: i never even considered going dark until i met rachel fisher. i never thought pink eyeshadow would look good on me until i saw it look incredible on her.
i honestly don't know where that comment came from. all cuntyness aside, i can't think of a time (friends or not) when i tried to copy her. and i thought she was "over it" too?

let's not forget the big zinger--removing something miranda put on johnathan's grave.
you know what?
i'm not even going to be sarcastic with this one.
that is the most fucked up thing i have ever ever heard in my life.
i knew she was shiesty, but i would NEVER imagine someone would be that low and disrespectful.
i don't care HOW much you hate someone, you do NOT take something off someone's grave from that person.
i had little respect for her before, and now i have absolutely none. hopefully anyone who reads this will have none either, because that is the lowest thing you could ever do. i always knew there was something wrong with you, and this really really proves it. you are lower than dirt. seriously.

so, in conclusion, i apologize for stalking rachel. i mean, look at her, who wouldn't want to? that one time i looked at her page during that four month period will last me the rest of the year, it was so awesome.
and since i stalked rachel, i think it's only appropriate to allow melissa to look at kim's page as well and then tell rachel. you know, because she was only trying to be the peacemaker, like with dustin and miranda. it's also okay for elizabeth to IM me and message kim to point out how it was wrong for kim to be involved with someone she doesn't know, you know, since elizabeth doesn't know me or kim. perfectly okay.

so thank you to elizabeth, melissa, and especially rachel. just when you think you're making some type of little statement about what you say and do, it's a slap in the face when you realize that you're just a pawn in someone else's game, and not only for the first time. every single thing you did in the past few days, i knew you were going to do. i know exactly what you're going to do next (i'll leave my fans in suspense though). i know exactly what you're going to say.

once again,
thanks for playing.
[and losing]
4 threw glitter| bring out your feminine side

[14 Nov 2005|11:09pm]
so tired i could die.
3 threw glitter| bring out your feminine side

...check. [07 Nov 2005|10:58pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

i forgot, i needed to update on...well, a lot of shit.
i hate not having time anymore...and being tired all the time...and...the same old complaints.
the nine inch nails concert was fucking. awesome.
i love trent reznor...i may not like his new music (or his new haircut) as well as his old, but he's still an artistic genius no matter how different it sounds. i mean, god, fucking myspace sponsers nin now, but...oh well, i guess. they played a lot of the old stuff, like "closer" (miranda and i creamed our panties, thanks), "march of the pigs", "terrible lie", "wish", "gave up", "head like a hole"....i mean really really good stuff that i've always pressed "repeat" to on my cd player over and over again. of course they played some new stuff...and "hurt", as always...i honestly choked up during that song. also, they smashed a FEW things, which is always entertaining. the guitarist smashed a speaker and threw a piece of it in the audience...lucky bitches. we were in the seated section...it would have kind of sucked to stand forever down there, but at the same time, it's fucking nine inch nails, you know? this sounds dorky, but the stage lighting was AWESOME. there always was a screen during two songs showing various shit. trent reznor knows how to put on a show. and jeordie white fka twiggy was there too, hurray<3 i was thinking about sporting my "bring back twiggy" shirt that i wore to see manson, but that shit is way too small for me now. death from above 1979 was blah, but reed liked them and bought a cd. he also somehow got a free bright eyes poster and brought a book to read. queens of the stone age were awesome...they're a really good band and deserve a bit more attention, i think. reed made a big deal about how he felt up brody before the singer from qotsa did...haha. (reed randomly felt her boob on the street when she walked past when they were barely known, when they performed at the nanci raygun here in richmond a long time ago). oh yeah, someone kept smoking some mad weed around us the entire time. and this guy got in a huge fight with the security guard or something. oh and also drug-related, some guy tried to sell reed some E when he went to the bathroom. unrelated--chinatown was cool-looking and we went into an urban outfitters. that store has always irked me a bit, since the customers are rich "enlightened" preppy kids who used to pop their collars but now spend 100 on designer jeans trying to look like they got it at a flea market. but whatever, i guess.
things that pissed me off:
1. i got directions to the metro station on mapquest, so that i wouldn't have to drive into downtown d.c. as if figuring out that damn metro wasn't hard enough, i was supposed to take exit 176 a, but somehow, the exits ended at like 160 and then started at 1???? so i had to drive all the way into downtown and park in a 20 dollar parking deck. that was my "gas money" from everyone else though, so it turned out okay.
2. my car now has the biggest scrape in the world on it. honestly, it doesn't piss me off that bad though. a car's a car...as long as it has a cd player, good gas mileage, and runs nicely, i'm fine.
3. 18 wheelers hate me for some reason. oh yeah, there was an 18 wheeler in front of us with a faux penis hanging off the back of it lol. made our day.

2 threw glitter| bring out your feminine side

heaven beside you [07 Nov 2005|10:41pm]
[ mood | super jaded ]

Be what you wanna be
See what you came to see
Been what you wanna be
I don’t like what I see

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter will
Heaven beside you... hell within
And you think you have it still, heaven inside you

So there’s problems in your life
That’s fucked up, and I’m not blind
I’m just see through faded, super jaded
And out of my mind

Do what you wanna do
Go out and seek your truth
When I’m down and blue
Rather be me than you

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter will
Heaven beside you... hell within
And you wish you had it still, heaven inside you

So there’s problems in your life
That’s fucked up, and I’m not blind
I’m just see through faded, super jaded
And out of my mind

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter will
Heaven beside you... hell within
And you know you have it still, heaven inside you

So there’s problems in your life
That’s fucked up, but you’re not blind
You’re just see through faded, overrated
And out of your mind

-alice in chains

why do i keep copying and pasting this shit?
i have no idea, but the songs are stuck in my head.

bring out your feminine side

mrs. butterworth [06 Nov 2005|11:42pm]
[ mood | trite ]

Your life is shit
Your life is over
Your life is mine
Your life is hell

I'm gonna die
Dying with you just
I'm going to die
To wear my libido
I'm gonna try
To find it with you just
I'm gonna try
Do what they say

Your life is shit
Your life is strange
And insane
Your life is not the size of crap
Your life is now

I'm gonna die
Dying with you just
I'm going to hell
Without my libido
I'm gonna try
To find it with you just
I'm going to hell
Without my libido
I'm gonna die
Dying with you just
I'm going to hell
Without my libido
I'm gonna try
To find it with you just
I'm gonna die
Do what they say

Your life is shit

"I'm gonna open myself up a flea market
I'm gonna open myself up a flea market
And you're gonna wish that you did
And retire on the profits
First off
I'm gonna empty out all of my Mrs. Butterworth jars
And I'm gonna put 'em on a shelf with my 800 dollar a month tax free Century 21 shop
And then I am going to put my Mrs. Butterworth syrup jars on the shelf
Next to all the commemorative fast food chain glasses and cups I've accumulated over the past 62 years
Then I'm going to get some plywood
I'm going to get some plywood and cut them up into two by two piece squares
Then I'm going to get some burlap and I'm going to cut them into two by two piece squares and then I'm going to put them onto the pieces of plywood
And then I'm going to go to the beach
I'm going to go to the beach and I'm gonna collect some shells and driftwood
And then I'm going to take the shells and driftwood and glue them onto the plywood and burlap
And sell em for lots of money
People will be paying top dollar for my kids new used new toys and clothing
Then maybe someday I can get rid of that piss stained mattress I've been sleeping on..."


bring out your feminine side

hurray [30 Oct 2005|10:08pm]
[ mood | sick ]

This Is My Life, Rated
Take the Rate My Life Quiz
bring out your feminine side

[23 Oct 2005|10:27pm]
[ mood | tired ]

fall break was not the blast i had hoped it to be.
for one thing, i worked every day of the weekend, including an 8 hour shift today, which someone was the most fun. i think it was because i felt "motivated" or whatever it was we talked about doing in today's holiday meeting. by the way, the mall opens at 6 or 7 a.m. during the holidays. lovely. and Rave is now going to be called Lola. apparently it's the name picked most often during a teenage girl survey or something. and we're called "fashion stylists" instead of "sales associates", which will look good on my resume. also, rebecca (new assistant manager) pulled me aside on friday and told me that her and jade were talking and thought i was the best sales associate (fashion stylist) and that jade was going to "give me a little something" (or something along those lines). she also told me to keep it on the dl. so i'm assuming i'm getting a raise or something nifty like that...it can't be a promotion because i already told them i couldn't do it (be an assistant manager) during college. my job can be really annoying sometimes, and i dread standing on my feet for 8 hours and stuff, but i honestly can say that i enjoy it and that i'm good at it. and i know people think, "wow, you work at Rave...how fucking hard," but it really IS hard work....there's a lot of things involved...the normal stuff-cleaning, working the cash register, etc...but you have to kiss the customer's ass 24/7 just so they buy something. i like selling things to people though--i really think i'm good at that and i don't know why, but i'm not bragging, because people have told me this. worst thing about work--my feet hurt like shit all the time. maybe it's because my shoes have a hole in the bottom, or because the heel is caving in. on saturday, we (me, miranda, jerry, aaron, krystal k) went to chesterfield towne center and i tried to look for new shoes EVERYwhere, but was tot' unsuccess'...i saw some semi-decent ones, but they were 70 dollars, and i'm on a 40ish dollar budget. my feet really hurt though...i get pain all the way up my calves now and my right foot's bone cracks when i walk. i feel trapped in a 40 year old's body sometimes...i wake up or sit up after an hour and have to hunch over because i'm so stiff and my knees won't bend. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me, but i bet i will be having some weird health problems again in about...a month, probably. speaking of that, reed's roommates apparently have bronchitis, and he's starting to show symptoms too. lovely. and of course, i get every disease that goes around (i wash my hands all the time so i don't know what my deal is)...i can't wait to start coughing up phlegm again.
best fun i've had in a while: playing with the ouija board with miranda, jerry, aaron, and krystal k. before i say anything, let me clarify that i do NOT believe in what it tells you, or that a demon is telling you something, or things of that nature--i think your subconscious makes you move it to what you want to say through word association. for example, you might randomly scoot it to a "d", and in your mind, you associate "d" with "die" because you're in this mystical mood, so you subconcscioiusly spell out "d-i-e." besides all that, it was tot' fun. we "contacted" an "evil" "spirit" (why don't i just stop putting everything in quotes and just say once again, that it was all in fun and i don't believe in or any of it) named zambabwmam or something...and he requested that we turn the lights off, so we blew out the candles, and krystal k and miranda left because they were antsy. zambajdka said he hated me ("hate u") over and over because i was "bright." he also said he liked jerry because jerry was "dark" and that jerry was going to kill me and aaron at 2:30. there was some talk of zelalkdja and jerry being the same person during his little killing spree or whatever, but it was kind of unclear. he also spun the pointer thingy around in weird angles in our hands. i almost forgot, before any of this, we contacted one named greg who kept messing with us and spelled out "toy", and he came back later as "tame." after zalkdja, we contacted some good spirits and i'm going to have three kids and get married at 41 apparently. when i asked how i was going to die, it said "man." also, on a lot of questions, the good ones never told me a lot and always said opposite answers, about how i was dark and then good and all this other mess...it said i was "faded" at one point, so we came to the conclusion that i have an ambivalent or grey aura, and that's why it kept giving me jibberish and contradictory answers. it said krystal k was the most dominant and the most bright, and that aaron was the weakest...jerry was the most dark, then me, then miranda and aaron (forgot what order it was), then krystal k. at one point it kept asking "r u krystal" like over and over and over and saying she was "good" and had powers. 'twas fun.

2 threw glitter| bring out your feminine side

[20 Oct 2005|06:37pm]
[ mood | awesome ]

DMV Employees, Militant Vegans
Circle I Limbo

Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Libertarians, Democrats
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Circle IV Rolling Weights

Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

Circle VII Burning Sands

Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

George Bush
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

bring out your feminine side

tot' true. [16 Oct 2005|09:07pm]
The Priss
Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer (DBLDf)

Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.

Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word. You're also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy.

These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.

Your exact opposite:
The Playstation

Random Gentle Sex Master
You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. Though you're inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it's not as one of mass destruction. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Playboy, The Loverboy

CONSIDER: The Manchild

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: astrangrwthcand
bring out your feminine side

[02 Oct 2005|11:36pm]
[ mood | fussy ]

i never update anymore. it's too much effort. wah.
yesterday i worked for seven hours...part of the time i had to stand by a table we set up in the food court and try to "recruit" people to work for Rave during the holiday season. everyone else combined got 4 people. i got 12 in a 3 hour period. go me. some weird guy hit on me...he started with the tired out "rave? haha do you ever go to raves?" type of crap. then he was like "i like your little get-up, you're hot." i was trying to be "nice" in case he was a customer. then him and his little friends sat at a table behind the water fountain where they talked about me and walked around me for the next two hours. sorry, i don't go for stout 40 year olds in the military. also, another army guy said my makeup was "really sexy." with the exception of maybe 3 people, every army guy i've met is obsessed with making sexual comments to girls in southpark mall.
today i had to interview the people we "recruited"...my manager had other things to do, so i volunteered. some nervous 17 year old girl called me "ma'am" haha. it's kind of weird to be looked at as an authority figure. after work, i went to waffle house and reed (he quit dunkin donuts) made me a waffle with whipped cream and strawberries for free. aww. <3

the people next to me are so fucking loud. they have SIX people living there and they shout, laugh, scream, yell, bang, pound, etc, until 3 a.m. almost every night. a few days ago, we started banging back, and they came to our door to ask what was up, and when i informed them (very cuntily by the way) that they were loud as hell, they denyed it all, quieted down for about 10 minutes, and then raised havoc for the rest of the night. maybe i'll file a noise complaint if i get too fussy. i'm sorry, but i have to wake up at 7 a.m. every day and i need to go to sleep kinda early! shut. the. fuck. up!

2 threw glitter| bring out your feminine side

[17 Sep 2005|01:25am]
[ mood | hyper ]

tonight was tot' fun! me, reed, jerry, miranda, sam, and marcus went to denny's and like EVERY person i used to know was there, including my sister, a girl i used to go to church with, kids from school, etc. our food took fucking FOREVER so of course we bitched about that. me, jerry, and miranda bitched about everything anyway, but hey, we're tot' cunt so it's expected. by the way, jerry's "i heart dick" shirt caused quite a stir. some ghetto fab guys outside threatened to "whoop his ass" lol. silly homos.

(reading over this entry makes me want to punch myself in the face for sounding 13 and preppy.)

by the way, i got called into work early AGAIN and my feet hurt really really really really bad, like the bone in my arch is slowly cracking or something. my mom mentioned something about that actually being able to happen the other day. hmm.

3 threw glitter| bring out your feminine side

[16 Sep 2005|12:40am]
[ mood | nervous ]

i'm sure everyone (or everyone that lives down here) has heard about taylor behl, the missing vcu freshman, right? it's been all over the news down here, and even on the today show.
well tonight i was watching family guy, and all of a sudden this bright red screen comes on the tv and says there's a child abduction emergency and now there's an amber alert out for her. i've heard about this stuff the whole week...but for some reason, hearing that specific thing made me really nervous....i guess it made it more REAL. this is scary though...she lives a floor below me, and the last place she was seen is RIGHT down the street. that means that something had to happen to her really close to where i live....that means there could be some psycho out there lurking around just waiting for vulnerable girls. and I'M a vulnerable girl--i'm constantly walking around with loads of stuff, so if someone were to attack me, that means i would have no chance of protecting myself, and the parking garage is REALLY secluded and dark...there is no security in there, only a truck that drives around giving people tickets. it would be too easy for someone to hide underneath a car and hurt people just trying to walk back to their dorm, especially if they're carrying a million bags like me. i always lock my doors, i always check my surroundings, i carry mace, i tell people where i'm going and how long i'm going to be, i call my mom when i get back---all that type of stuff....but EVERYone does that and i'm sure taylor behl did it too, and it's not enough all the time and that creeps me out.

2 threw glitter| bring out your feminine side

[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]