fall break was not the blast i had hoped it to be.
for one thing, i worked every day of the weekend, including an 8 hour shift today, which someone was the most fun. i think it was because i felt "motivated" or whatever it was we talked about doing in today's holiday meeting. by the way, the mall opens at 6 or 7 a.m. during the holidays. lovely. and Rave is now going to be called Lola. apparently it's the name picked most often during a teenage girl survey or something. and we're called "fashion stylists" instead of "sales associates", which will look good on my resume. also, rebecca (new assistant manager) pulled me aside on friday and told me that her and jade were talking and thought i was the best sales associate (fashion stylist) and that jade was going to "give me a little something" (or something along those lines). she also told me to keep it on the dl. so i'm assuming i'm getting a raise or something nifty like that...it can't be a promotion because i already told them i couldn't do it (be an assistant manager) during college. my job can be really annoying sometimes, and i dread standing on my feet for 8 hours and stuff, but i honestly can say that i enjoy it and that i'm good at it. and i know people think, "wow, you work at Rave...how fucking hard," but it really IS hard work....there's a lot of things involved...the normal stuff-cleaning, working the cash register, etc...but you have to kiss the customer's ass 24/7 just so they buy something. i like selling things to people though--i really think i'm good at that and i don't know why, but i'm not bragging, because people have told me this. worst thing about work--my feet hurt like shit all the time. maybe it's because my shoes have a hole in the bottom, or because the heel is caving in. on saturday, we (me, miranda, jerry, aaron, krystal k) went to chesterfield towne center and i tried to look for new shoes EVERYwhere, but was tot' unsuccess'...i saw some semi-decent ones, but they were 70 dollars, and i'm on a 40ish dollar budget. my feet really hurt though...i get pain all the way up my calves now and my right foot's bone cracks when i walk. i feel trapped in a 40 year old's body sometimes...i wake up or sit up after an hour and have to hunch over because i'm so stiff and my knees won't bend. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me, but i bet i will be having some weird health problems again in about...a month, probably. speaking of that, reed's roommates apparently have bronchitis, and he's starting to show symptoms too. lovely. and of course, i get every disease that goes around (i wash my hands all the time so i don't know what my deal is)...i can't wait to start coughing up phlegm again.
best fun i've had in a while: playing with the ouija board with miranda, jerry, aaron, and krystal k. before i say anything, let me clarify that i do NOT believe in what it tells you, or that a demon is telling you something, or things of that nature--i think your subconscious makes you move it to what you want to say through word association. for example, you might randomly scoot it to a "d", and in your mind, you associate "d" with "die" because you're in this mystical mood, so you subconcscioiusly spell out "d-i-e." besides all that, it was tot' fun. we "contacted" an "evil" "spirit" (why don't i just stop putting everything in quotes and just say once again, that it was all in fun and i don't believe in or any of it) named zambabwmam or something...and he requested that we turn the lights off, so we blew out the candles, and krystal k and miranda left because they were antsy. zambajdka said he hated me ("hate u") over and over because i was "bright." he also said he liked jerry because jerry was "dark" and that jerry was going to kill me and aaron at 2:30. there was some talk of zelalkdja and jerry being the same person during his little killing spree or whatever, but it was kind of unclear. he also spun the pointer thingy around in weird angles in our hands. i almost forgot, before any of this, we contacted one named greg who kept messing with us and spelled out "toy", and he came back later as "tame." after zalkdja, we contacted some good spirits and i'm going to have three kids and get married at 41 apparently. when i asked how i was going to die, it said "man." also, on a lot of questions, the good ones never told me a lot and always said opposite answers, about how i was dark and then good and all this other mess...it said i was "faded" at one point, so we came to the conclusion that i have an ambivalent or grey aura, and that's why it kept giving me jibberish and contradictory answers. it said krystal k was the most dominant and the most bright, and that aaron was the weakest...jerry was the most dark, then me, then miranda and aaron (forgot what order it was), then krystal k. at one point it kept asking "r u krystal" like over and over and over and saying she was "good" and had powers. 'twas fun.